What do you think of my taste?

Freddie Prinze Jr.

James Caviezel
James Marsters

James Purefoy

Justin Berfield (reese – malcolm in the middle)

BakkouzEH

OK, yesterday i saw that movie and i got that Q in my mind:

well… I know and i said it alot that we dont have the right to take decision for others and noone has the right to do so,,,,

NOW, we love someone, if we didnt tell them that we do, does that mean that we’r taking decision for them? i believe that if we love someone we have to tell them and i did that before, shall i tell u about that or no i dont know,,,, anyway if we didnt tell them r we taking decision for them? sure we’r doing for ourselves but what about them? ok u’ll say if they love us they will tell us, but why we have to wait and waste our time instead of spending it with the ppl we love, and what about if they dont love us? at least we tried and we wont ask ourselves “WHAT IF?” i’m not saying that am that strong girl i take lots of time to take my dission for anything whatever it was but the thing is that now i have crush in that guy and i cant make him mine coz hes just not and hes the reason for the last post, but he opened lots of doors inside me, like, what i want from me? and where the hell am taking myself?!

Anyway this is a chat i made today with a friend of mine really good one and someone i can talk to about anything
* Kautsu checks the reason of NaturalBlu’s happiness
<NaturalBlu> Kautsu I WANT to be happy
<NaturalBlu>
<Kautsu> NaturalBlu: I think most of people want to be happy =)
<Kautsu> But it is nice that you have archieved that state of mind
<NaturalBlu> what state?
<Kautsu> Happiness

<NaturalBlu> am just trying to be
<NaturalBlu> i want to fall in love
<Kautsu> NaturalBlu: You do?
* Kautsu is scared
<NaturalBlu> i want to
<Lord_Cornwallis> you can’t force to fall in love fatoom
<Kautsu> NaturalBlu: For me falling in love is a state of ecstacy… and like any kind of druggie, everything else is forgotten
<NaturalBlu> eh! i know
<NaturalBlu> i kept myself away from love
<Lord_Cornwallis> yes you do

<NaturalBlu> but now i want it
<Kautsu> NaturalBlu: But it is good to hear you are trying to get yourself closer to the loving woman
<NaturalBlu> i also want to kiss someone coz i love him
<NaturalBlu> feel really scared when hes sick
<NaturalBlu> all that stuff
<Lord_Cornwallis> whom you want to snog, fatoom?
<NaturalBlu> i dont know
<NaturalBlu> :S
<Kautsu> NaturalBlu: Then you have to lower your defenses and let someone get inside them =)
<Kautsu> NaturalBlu: Heavy defenses on outer perimeter of your soul makes loving others quite difficult
<NaturalBlu> heh! Kautsu
<NaturalBlu> how i can do that?
<Kautsu> By letting someone to know your secrets.. The ones you are trying to hide most.
<NaturalBlu> my secrets?
<Kautsu> As long as you are hiding things, you keep up a wall protecting your soul (and the secrets)

<Kautsu> You do not have any? O.O
<NaturalBlu> how i can know that, that someone is interested to know my secrets?
<Kautsu> By talking them. If they love your company, and share their secrets with you, they are good candidates
<Kautsu> And not all is give at once…
<Kautsu> NaturalBlu: It might also be that you haven’t yet found the person you love
<Lord_Cornwallis> yeah
<NaturalBlu> its not about the oerson i love

<NaturalBlu> person
<Lord_Cornwallis> i know whom i admire and whom i have an affection for
<NaturalBlu> its just i cant fall in love with someone am not sure that hes the one
<Kautsu> NaturalBlu: You cannot know that without giving him a chance =)

<NaturalBlu> Kautsu ur amazing!

Thats is.

WELL,

I’m Just Happy

Happy Happy HAPPY

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HAHAHAHAHAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA

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Yesterday I was really mad and upset so I got the idea to write the things I hate about myself, and the things I have to change. 

Here we go

1. rasi byen7are2 bsor3a and I cant control it :S.
2. when am mad am really rude!.
3. ppl have to do nice things to me and love me coz they have to and i dont have to do the same thing for them.
4. I dont know who I am.
5. I judge ppl.
6. am not as good as i try to show ppl.
7. I dont fight for my rights or things I love or want.
8. I take life, things more easy than I should.
9. I cant be me all the time.
10. I dont give ppl chance.

Maybe there is more but thats what i remember for now if u have more stuff ur welcome

I’ve been tagged by neverland and u all free to do it or no, bas ino do it

Name: Fatoom

Childhood ambition: I dont remember but i wanted to be a boy ;op

First job: ummm yet

First ‘real’ job: sho el far2?

Fondest memory: when i heared that my friend ibra passed his tawjihi

Retreat: me? when i nothing left to do

Wildest dream: be educated

Proudest moment: that am still alive maybe

Perfect day: when i shop till i drop

Indulgence: sleeping

Soundtrack:god father theme,

Last purchase: cosmatics

Alarm clock:

People: i hate ppl

Favorite book: the divine comedy – danty

Most used expression: zah2aneh, wala eshe

Inspiration: Strong ppl

News source: anything

Biggest challenge: try to be myself :S

Religion: really complicated thing

Education: what will set the world free

Pain:

Happiness: they say it comes from the inside but i dont think so

Yesterday i went with my friends to aqaba and wadi rum we had really good time , tried to enjoy everything, anyway the most important thing that for the 1st time i climbed rum mountains i was so afraid and my legs were shaking hehe anyway even it was really nice thing but i wont do it again hights are really dangerous thing and i wasnt only afraid for myself but also for my friends, dono what else i have to say about it,
oh! yeah, guys danced circassian sure with girls that was nice 2

anyway here is a pic for me and hamzeh in Aqaba

This is an old amazing song for majeda el roumi about amman i looked for it everywhere but couldnt fine it, so plz if anyone know it and know where i can get it from plz tell me

thank u so much